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[twiststheblade]

Miho's room is, indeed, much more personal than the last time Mary Anne saw it. It's still stark and white - white walls, white sheets and comforter on the low futon - but now there's also a deep pile rug (also white, of course), on the blonde floorboards, and an enormous and extremely comfortable (white) leather bean bag sofa with a coffee table in front of it.

A book-case at one end of the bean bag has an eclectic collection of books, graphic novels and movies, and there's a small (digital) sound system next to the television. A few half-finished projects are lying on a neat desk. In other words, she looks like she's moved in, not as if she expects to leave at any moment.

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"I think so."

Heartbeat.

"I hope so."

There is, after all, no going back.

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No, there isn't, is there? Would she like a refill of that tequila?

"I'm sure the decision wasn't made lightly."

decisions? Suck.

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As a matter of fact, she would.

"Been sitting on it since May," she admits.

They suck outloud.

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Miho snags the bottle, and refills Mary Anne's glass.

"That's a lot of thought."

She sighs, and looks away.

"How did you know it was the right decision?" And how do i know.

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"It felt right, when I did it. Felt like it fit."

A mouthful of tequila.

"But I guess I can't know for sure."

Not without looking down paths she didn't take, and that's more than she's willing to do just now.

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Miho sighs.

"Yeah."

Never can know for sure. And dammit, what's she supposed to do?

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Mary Anne doesn't have any answers. Just a question.

"You want a refill?"

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Yeah. Miho isn't even sure that she actually has questions. Just that there's something that needs fixing.

"Yes, please."

With bourbon. Which is having the desired effect. She's beginning to feel a little warm - after all, there isn't a great deal of her.

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"Here you go."

She tops off Miho's glass, then returns to her own drink, letting booze and jazz blend together in her brain.

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Miho eyes the glass, and takes a sip. Then she pulls the towel off her hair, twists sideways on the beanbag, and slips down so she can rest her head in mary Anne's lap. Her hair is mostly dry.

"Why is life so fucking hard?"

It's mostly a rhetorical question, and seems to be addressed more to her glass than to her company.

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Her fingers slide into Miho's hair, combing out faintly damp strands.

"If I knew the answer, lovely, I'd tell you."

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"Hmm."

Miho looks up, near-black eyes meeting oddly blue ones.

"I know. Don't suppose you have any advice for me?"

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She shakes her head.

"Nothing particularly useful, 'm sorry."

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She sighs.

"It's just. . ." This is the bourbon speaking. "Well, Goldy. She says that she wants to make this work, but she doesn't seem to want to put any effort into it. If we have a problem, she seems to think that a cute smile will make it better. And it doesn't work like that."

Sigh.

"She doesn't take me into account. I don't own her. But it would be nice if she thought about my feelings."

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"Not everybody's big on dealing with things head on," she says, still toying with Miho's hair.

"Especiallly not confrontations with people they care about. Not defending it, 'm just saying."

And taking another sip of tequila, since that helps the philosophical processes.

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"I've never been good at it. But at least I make the effort."

She sighs and sits up again. Far too hard to drink whilst lying down.

"I'm just starting to think she doesn't care."

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"I think she does," she says, the words not so much argument as gentle disagreement.

"In her own way."

Because she's not willing to believe just yet that Goldy doesn't care at all.

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"And there," just a little slurred, now, "lies the root of the problem."

But not slurred enough. More bourbon.

"Her way is not conducive" Miho uses big words when tipsy "to us coming to any kind of fucking agreement."

Angry face.

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She sighs, running a hand through her hair.

"You may have a point there, sweet."

The point is toasted by more tequila.

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"It's just. . . she calls me her girlfriend, and treats me like a fuck-buddy."

Miho shrugs. The robe slips down again and this time she ignores it.

"And it sucks."

She sighs, and abruptly changes the subject.

"You know. Your eyes are fascinating."

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"I know it does, lovely."

(sisters and fiancees and ex-wives and entirely too many other women)

She laughs softly. "Glad you like them."

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Well, then. If Goldy is going to be like that. And it's not vengeance, at all. Because, unlike Goldy, Miho knows how her girlfriend feels. And she cares.

"Very much."

Pupils dilated, Miho's eyes are near as black as Mary Anne's are blue. Not quite, of course, for her eyes are purely human.

"And not just the eyes, of course."

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"Of course. Glad you like all of me."

This seems the appropriate time to steal a kiss.

So she does.

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Now, here is an interesting philosophical question. Is a thing stolen, if it is given up willingly? Or does the intent to steal make the act theft in any case? We shall leave that as an excercise for the reader, and say only that Miho has no objection to being kissed.

And kisses back.

And if there is just the smallest touch of desperation, what of it? She hasn't seen Mary Anne in a while, after all.

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It's been much too long. Desperation is entirely reasonable.

She reaches over and manages to set her glass on the coffee table without spilling; after that, both of her hands are free to hold Miho's face in optimal kissing range.